"Some are the rabbits who run swiftly in beginning and get tired before goal, and some are the tortoise who steadily reach their goal"
This post is about the most important turning point of my life, the incident and the era that turned up my complete life.
it was 2000-2001 when the first incident that happened that i remember , i was in 6th standard and it was the day when one of my maths class test result were to be declared. when i entered the classroom the results were already declared and my teacher and a girl(wont mention her name) welcomed me by " AAo mukul tumne top kia hai" , listening to that i got the biggest smile on my face and asked " seriously? kitne marks hai mere" , then they both laughed and said " 1 on 20, tum last aaye ho.. " , that was the most embarrassing moment till then of my life , i came home and the incident kind of was pushing me to give a reply to their laugh`s.this was not just maths , english ,hindi , sanskrit, social studies, all except SCIENCE were the same ,always lingering on border line to get passing marks to promote to next standard. but science , science was something i was too amazed by and somehow i always used to top in anything related to science , papers, quiz, projects etc.. science used to attract me towards it and somehow i was always able to reason anything related to it even if i heard that term for the first time. that was the only saviour to me in those days..
2001-2002 things were still same , standing in all lectures except science where i was one of few students to sit.. beatings for amazingly poor performance.. i remember one of this year too. it was again a maths class and percentages were been taught , my teacher asked me a question regarding multiple discount , and i kept quite.. for that i was punished to stand outside class for 2 hours .. everything around me seemed to push me down the ground , no inspirations , no extra pull that i needed to come out and rise . this was the time when my mum took me to a psychiatrist and he told that i suffered from a syndrome dyslexia and gave medicines . those medicines dint helped me come out of it but induced a lot of sleep for my free time and gave me around 20 pounds extra fat ..
due to all the things around i was 0 on self confidence and i used to be the laughing stock of class , the clown, i was given beatings , i remember the legendary punch on my nose given by a senior.. i was totally unhappy..
but as we know " sad does not remain sad forever and neither happy remains happy forever "
2002-2003 time when things were written to change and came a turning point in my life.. my mum works at a school as a teacher. she asked one of her colleague who was a maths teacher to teach me maths as i was going dull each day. she accepted the offer and i used to go to her place . her name is Mrs. Aruna Joshi , i started going their, she very patiently used to teach me the stuff plan tests according to my capabilities and praise me even for solving one question , that was the pull that i needed to rise the initial stroke.. i used to fear from success , and was always scolded by my teachers . but she , she was different , she infused that confidence in me . by the time my summer break finished and i become a 8th grade chap, i was done with my maths.. i used to be the first one to answer every question in class, that made me recognise, my teacher noticed me , my maths performance reports graded me a+ , 99/100, 100/100 .. these figures infused an urge to do the same in other fields too. and in no time by the next year of my school i was among the top rankers of my class..
i remember my first position , it was 3rd in 9th grade with 89%..
this gave a complete turn, the marks, repo in fellow class mates, i was the first one to solve their doubts and the last one too, as no question went unanswered by me. it was kinda felt amazing , the person who had everything as a doubt , the person who was himself a question was now the answer to everything.. the feeling was so amazing that it became an inspiration, as i have been through the phase where everything was dull , gloomy and lonely , i had seen that phase and i never wanted it to come again, that`s what i began to work for, "not to fall" and that became my reason to rise .
another incident that i would i like to write..
it was the day when my 10th grade result came up , i scored 82.6 % , not too good but i knew with these marks i will get what i want, to get into science stream in college.
to choose my future lane, i went to my school, n i met the same girl at reception who laughed at me on that maths class marks (quoted above) , she saw me looking at science stream cut off, and said to me " mukul , waha kya dekh rha hai commerce n humanities ki cut off niche hai" ; science cut of was 75 , and i fairly made it there. i saw her result it was 78 something . i laughed inside (lol) but dint said nething.
2005-2007 , 11th n 12th grade , the time when i saw all my fellow classmates who used to be the leaders coz that was the time when people fell in wrong company , relationships n stuff.. and ruin their life. but that time i was studying my passion, i was a part to chase my passion SCIENCE, i became one of the favourites , i was always the part of the leader board, and most of all i was happy, and confident.. the mukul who was beaten by fellows 4 years ago was now someone people said sorry . i was happy , it was my golden era of school..
and i got the first trophy of my life
for being 3rd position holder in 11th grade
enjoying my dream, science, attention, recognition, everything i started to like a girl in school, her laugh used to amaze me.. i used to solve questions while looking at her, and i swear i did both together nd pretty well.. hehehe but i never could tell her. fear of loosing her friendship always hit my mind when i thought of expressing..
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yea.. so working toward my dream , n enjoying all the attention, and yes enjoying science time passed and i gave 12 C.B.S.E board exams and was waiting for result.
THE RESULT..
it was morning time, when the result hit internet . when i checked it , i refreshed the page 10 times until i got a call from my c++ teacher Ms. Urvashi Singhal( now married) congratulating me..
my result showed
c++ -> 97
maths -> 92
chemistry -> 92
english -> 87
physics ->89
totalling to 91.4 % , and making me the topper of the batch.. i literally fell on floor where i was standing and stretched my arms like embracing the whole world in my arms.
that was the moment I knew for a school topper that was not a nice percentage. but it was a dream come true for me. whatever it was i was the student of year and no one can deny that.. and i was elated by the fact.
SCHOOL TROPHY
awarded by AMUL for being school topper
every success that i had created a desire for a greater success in me .. or i can quote " the memories i had became the source of my desires" .
i went on chasing my dream to became a computer professional i joined a B.tech course , n by fortune i got into one of the top colleges in this field in delhi.
in college being exposed to my dream , computers, technology, robotics,.. my utter fascination was how things work.. was always fascinated by computers, and the great programs that we use and always used to praise those great programmers that had made those application and always had a desire to be once in future be praised for some work that i have done related to computers..
apart from my curriculum i attended robotics workshops, programming seminars, technology workshops, whatever... just gathering anything i can gather about tech..
a bot made at a workshop
at present , when i look back i feel i have come quite far chasing my dream to become a mustache in computer world , still the basic of my inspiration is the utter fact that " i dont want to see the phase of dullness and gloominess again.. because i know its worse than worst, and it feels like hell" .
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i believe that one day my dream to work for microsoft and to view my name in the field that we see when we start any microsoft application ( the field where all the developers name are written) will come true..
i thank Mrs. Aruna Joshi who i really credit my new life for, n yes the girl and the teacher who laughed at me on that class test result.. ( the teacher remembered the same incident and she kinda felt bad as she was my teacher again in 11th standard and she remembered what she did 5 years back) .
"confidence is the best medicine , it made me overcome a mental illness dyslexia "
"the thirst for knowledge has so ignited the spirit to learn that the flame cant be extinguished by all the water of earth.."
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Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail"
"SKILL AND WILL both are important to succeed , i have the will now and with each second that pass in my life i become more skillfull "
whenever we achieve something , some success in any field be it academics, sports, or be it even being hooked to the hottest girl in town , we all get induced by a new thirst to achieve the next level, new goals are set , new standards to achieve, we never get satisfied . all our present success does is to inspire us to do more and achieve higher and better things ..
so what our desires are ? are`nt they children of memories?
desires n memories hmmmmm... go hand in hand..
